Love

Compliments that mean the world to me
Words that make me feel special
Looks that set my heart on fire
Kisses that make my world spin

They mean nothing

Sitting next to me and never
Saying a word or looking at me
Trying to look pretty for you
Tears that only I know of.

Why do I keep trying?

Love songs playing on repeat
Laughing until we're crying
Flowers in beautiful vases
Blue eyes staring into brown.

Do you think of these times?

Black bruises, scars and tears
Shards of glass on hardwood
Turning away when I needed you
Screams as I beg you to stay

They play on loop in my mind.

You stood up, leaving me on
The unused railroad tracks
In my best dress and your jacket
Your blue eyes never shed a tear

I will get up and brush it all off.